A big part of your journey as a mother is getting to share it with your own. Having those common references, getting parenting tips from her, handed down home remedies for your child’s small and big ailments, special family recipes, getting to ask her, “did I do that when I was his age?”, the shared understanding of what makes the littlest milestones so momentous and meaningful. As someone much, much ahead of you in this lifelong adventure; she is your guide, your accomplice, your champion, your resting spot, the shoulder to cry upon and your inspiration to go on.
Without her, in so many ways you will be a lone traveler on this journey, often fumbling through the unknown.
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You summed it up. I Lost my mum 3 yrs back. The big C. She was 40 the 1st time, and was such an amazing example for the next 26 years. And then it came back. Relentless in it’s pursuit.
I have a baby girl too. Only much older than yours.
Take care, hugs.
radhika